Friday, November 9, 2007

Dreams From God of Peace – Nov. 9, 2007

I'd like to open by saying that I don't put a lot of stock in my dreams.

I mean that the dreams I have at night don't lead me to some cosmic logic or mystic knowledge or __________ (fill in the blank).

I believe God, at one time did use dreams and maybe once in a while He'll send us a bit of peace through a dream, but overall I am not convinced dreams are all that valuable.

Having said all of that I love my dreams! For the most part they are exciting and just real enough to prevent me from getting a good night's sleep. (Well, maybe that last one is not so much a benefit but the dreams are cool!)

There have been so many times I wish I could have written my dreams down as they are happening or, even better, had a video recording of those wild and wacky dreams.

I consider my dreams a blessing. In fact, I have learned to ask God nightly to protect my dreams so that sin will not run rampant in them as they can in my waking life. For the most part He answers those prayers. My dreams are usually pretty pure and just plain fun!

There are dreams that I have that are special in such a way as to be remembered for many years. One particular dream does not have any special feature that makes it extra ordinary but there are dreams that just stick out in my mind. Last night was one of those nights I considered a great blessing.

I dreamed that Grady was alive, still five years old and I had time to spend with him.

He was running around doing things and generally just being happy.

Kim was there and for some reason she was pretty neutral about him being around. (It was a dream after all!) Grady also was fairly neutral about being around. He seemed to enjoy our time together but he also was distracted by the activities he was involved with.

It's really hard to describe but I woke up after this dream feeling so happy to have seen Grady. I was not sad but glad.

Again I don't think this meant anything other than a time God gave me to be with Grady…a peace from God.
It was so fun to see him running around just like I remember!

Yes, a blessing from God.

I feel sad sometimes when I think about seeing Grady in heaven because one person I know believes when we are in heaven we will be perfect (I agree) and that means all of us will be in an adult form. I am not sad because of seeing Grady but because I still want to see him in the form I remember: him at five years old.

I held on to this belief about him being in adult form until lately as I've been reading the book of 1 Thessalonians.

In there, Paul tries to encourage the people of Thessalonica by telling them that the dead in Christ will be raised from the grave and beat us to heaven. As I look at that the conclusion that I come to is that the bodies that are in the grave are the ones the dead will rise in, although perfected.

I fully realize that I could be wrong on this and I don't mention it to stir up debate, it really is not important in the long haul, but what it does is just give me a tiny bit of comfort in this one ache in my heart.

If I get to heaven and Grady is a six foot three bronzed statue of a man I will rejoice greatly, but there is a part of me that hopes that I will still see the little four foot, five year old waiting to give me a big hug!

 

Keep fighting the good fight!

Monday, September 24, 2007

A Word of Encouragement

About a month ago I signed up on a website (for free!) that allows me to enter short stories (150-750 words) in a contest. I don't enter the contests to win but as another avenue to improve my writing. (I will say you do have to win to move onto the next level though) There is a new writing prompt each week and I have now submitted two stories. If you have taken the time to read my bio you will remember that some good friends of mine encouraged me to start wrtiting a couple fo years ago. I have messed around with it since then and and have a lot of, well, nothing. Oh, I do have some story ideas in that heap but nothing that I have really put my heart into but I have enjoyed the process. The real problem is that I have not been diligent with my writing. To improve in anything you attempt takes practice. Though I don't believe that you will become perfect if you practice enough I do believe you will imporve, getting better with each passing day. This is where I think my problem is, I am holding myself back by not being consistant with writing. With this said I have been looking for ways that will encourage me to write more so that I can imporve. The answer has been FatihWriters.com. It is free and easy and you get wonderful feed back from other participants. As Imentioned I have submitted two articles and have had very nice comments back from other writers and this has been a great encouragement to me! Two things I have noticed about these two submissions: 1) I have been passionate about them, they touched me personally and deeply in one way or another; 2) I have been able to improve from one submission to another. My latest submission, "A Glass of Milk With God" picked up the best "reveiews I have had so far and I can;t tell you how this excites me and motivates me to do better! If you are interested in improving your writing or just getting more exposure to your writing in a non-threatening way, check out FaithWriters.com! It is worth the effort! Keep fighting the good fight! Bye

Friday, September 21, 2007

Grace on Display -- Sept. 21, 2007

Each one of us on this little blue ball in space is a recipient of God's grace. "He makes the rain fall on the just and the unjust"... However, there are times when we seem to need a extra special injection of love and grace and when we get it it's like being reborn!

I am not talking about salvation from the spiritual sense here; I am talking about being a believer and being in a position that requires nothing more than grace and love.

This year my family and I have been on a roller coaster ride of proportions that we have not seen since Grady died, some five and a half years ago! Stress crept in as a serpent in the garden early and often this year and each time God, in His timing, displayed His grace and mercy through willing servants who modeled God's grace and mercy.

I always want to be a blessing to someone else but this year I have been the Jerry Rice of grace, the receiver. In fact, when I have tried to be the quarterback, the play turned into a flea flicker and I received the "ball" again! (See my blog on Grandma Vi.)

I have come to the realization that there are times when you can be used as a blessing in someone else's life but there are times when you are the one who receives the goodness of others.

To be honest, what I have gained, what I have been shown and have learned through these anxious times, by seeing the men and women of God come along side and demonstrate in incredible ways, God's grace and love, far outweighs any material benefit we have received.

When God moves the mountains we have created in our lives due to stress, sin, or whatever has caused us to be in the distressed place we are in, melts in the heat of His love and grace and the freedom we then have is, indeed, beyond what we thought possible.

I will leave you with this thought, piece of advice or whatever you would like to think of it as. Do with it as you will but please give it some thought:

 

Don't be too proud or fearful to seek help or guidance in troubling matters. We are not made to be islands nor are we made to bear our burdens alone. God's grace, in His timing, is a cool soothing rain during periods of drought in one's soul. He can move on His own but He likes to work through His servants. And who knows, maybe one day God will use you to demonstrate His grace to someone else! That is the true blessing!

 

Lord, Allow all of us to see Your grace in action and so move in our hearts that we would be willing and able to be used of You in others lives in return!

Thank You.

 

Good bye for now and may God's grace shine upon you in wonderful ways!

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Grandma Vi—August 28, 2007

 

 

There are people who come along once in a great while who make an indelible mark on our lives. Sometimes these individuals are singularly unremarkable…on the outside. This is a story of one of these people; a lady unremarkable on the outside but of a most outstanding character within.

For several months now, in fact this whole year, but who's counting, I have been feeling sorry for myself. Life has been tough and though I allow God some room to move I find myself slipping so easily back into the grand old pity party. I hate it because I want to be an encourager but when you go to a pity party, the dress code is a formal frown and black disposition with tie, you come out drunk on self-pity; you are not an encouragement to anyone and usually have the opposite effect. Everyone, especially my family has been suffering. What made it worse is that the more time I've been spending in God's word the uglier I seem to becoming. I repeat: I hate it!

Every turn these past few months seems to take me down the wrong way on a one way street; one bad decision after another, one calamity after another. And today it all seemed to come to a head. I had just resigned myself to the life of a total failure: as a husband, a father, a servant. I could think of nothing good that I had to offer anyone. Poor me! (The party continues!)

Now the place I work has a wonderful skywalk system that allows us to get some good walking in even when the weather is not conducive to that particular activity, and it can be a nice get away when things get hairy in the office. Lots of people take advantage of the skywalks and most seem to just blend into the background.
One particular lady stands out, however. You can see her every day shuffling from one garbage can to another digging for bottles and cans, aluminum cane in one hand and plastic bags in the other. It breaks my heart to think she has to do that but what can I do? I have a hard time keeping up with my own family, but I determined in my heart that the least I could do was be friendly. So whenever I see her I smile and say hello, and she is always quick with a smile and a hello in return.

Once in a while I will walk over to Mr. Beans, one of our many downtown coffee shops, for a bottle of milk and a muffin (No, I still don't drink coffee!) and, on occasion, I have decided to give my breakfast to this little old lady if I should run into her, complements of Jesus Christ, but the timing has never been right and I have not seen her on my return trips.

Today was shaping up like all the other days this year: starting out rough and getting worse. I had errands to run in preparation for an overnight trip to Des Moines and I could not get my ATM card to work. I was furious because this card was touted as such a great thing and it had been nothing but problems since I got it a month ago. I was boiling! And as the Jedi of Star Wars, I took a perilous step toward the dark side by maintaining these thoughts of anger! "Fear, anger these are pathways to the dark side" I could hear Yoda croaking out to Luke Skywalker.

Stepping into the skywalk I saw this humble old lady waist deep in a trash can. As I passed her I smiled and said hello, as was my custom but this time the Lord plucked my heart strings. He reminded me that I had four five dollar bills in my wallet and that I should give her one. Immediately I started making excuses as to why I shouldn't do it including the one that said I could embarrass her and that wouldn't be good! I then thought of Moses and Jonah and their lame excuses and I turned around and headed back. Praise the Lord for the Holy Spirit!

I soon found her shuffling my way. I stopped her and introduced myself to her and then let her talk.

She said her name was Grandma Vi and that she was ninety-two years old so I was to call her Grandma. She said that she comes into the skywalks every day, digs in all of the trash cans looking for bottles and cans and then takes them to the library and turns them in for a program the library has to (get this!) help needy children! These bottles and cans that she faithfully digs out every day she gives to others who have more need than her! This lady does not look as though she has much herself but she does not use what she finds on herself but to help others!

An arrow pierced my heart and I felt tears fill my eyes! In fact, the cold hard heart that I had been cultivating over the past months melted in the intensity of her devotion to others. Oh, Lord! I don't deserve to be in the presence of one so wonderfully humble and caring!

I offered her the five dollars and she shook her head. She went on to say she has determined not to take money from others and we parted ways, me wiping tears from my eyes. I was so humbled by this person who has little to nothing in yet what she does have she gives away! Grandma Vi is rich beyond my wildest dreams and she gave to me and didn't even realize it.

Yes indeed, there are people who come into our lives and affect us profoundly but what I have discovered is that the ones who are lowliest humblest seem to make the greatest impact. What would it have been like to meet Jesus face to face?
I am writing this for all of you as a testimony to a humble old lady who has made the people of the Cedar Rapids skywalks her grandchildren and models Christ's love better than most Christians I know. I can't say she is a believer but she is a wonderful role model.

It is my prayer that we all can have a Grandma Vi in our lives.

From Philippians 4: 8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

The Question of Thinking—Aug 14, 2007

I am doing a double post tonight. I have a lot on my mind.

One thing that I love to do is to make people think. I love to think and I love when others think.

I will admit I am not the greatest thinker but I do think a lot. It is not always clear what I am thinking, even to me the thinker, but I love to think. I hate the fact that I can't seem to focus very long on any one thought. This makes meditating on God's word hard for me along with fleshing out ideas for my stories. But I love it on those rare occasions that I am able to hold a thought or two for a quiet muse session.

One thing I learned a long time ago in an AWANA leader's training session that has stuck with me and really was a catalyst for my own thinking process was this: Ask kids open ended questions to get them to answer with more than a one or two word response and ask questions that may not have an answer; this will get them to think.

Such a question might be: "Did Mary's parents come and visit when Jesus was born?". Or "What would have been different if Adam and Eve had not eaten of the fruit of the forbidden tree? What if only Eve had eaten of it?

(There might be a good answer to those last two questions but they are pretty good for youngsters)

Any way I want to throw out a question tonight to y'all and see if I can get you to think.

Here goes:

How do you know if you are being discontent in your place of work or if the Lord is trying to lead you in a different path?

My scenario: I love the place I work and I love my boss and would have no problem working for any of the other bosses either. I am completely dissatisfied with the work I am doing however. It has affected my attitude though I am in constant communication with the Father to make sure I am letting Him deal with it and staying under His control.

I have tried and tried to move into a different area of the company, areas that I thought for sure I would fit and could benefit the organization and have repeatedly been shut out. Now I want you all to know that I am truly not bitter about this but I am extremely puzzled by it.

I could see God keeping me in the same company for His purpose but the same job? This has been my question(s).

I am now convinced that God has me in the position he has me in for a purpose, a real purpose. I don't know for sure what it is but I am actually excited to see what He will do with me. I still am not satisfied with the work but I am trying to look beyond the work to what God is trying to do through me where I am at right now.

What is God trying to do through YOU in your scenario? Ask Him to take control and help you to trust Him regardless whether He actually reveals what He is doing through you right where you are now.

It can change your outlook from one of misery and bitterness to one of excitement and wonder at the working of God's hand in your life!

Keep on fighting the good fight! God IS with you!

Bye!

Greg

Reflections on A Quiet Night—Aug. 14, 2007

I want to get a posting out today since it has been over two weeks since my last blog but I am at a standstill.

I am on call this week and it went very well until tonight. I received my first call of the week. This is unusual since historically I get very few calls on week nights. One to two calls on the weekend is typical and it is not uncommon to get no calls at all during the week.

I had planned to walk with a friend of mine tonight and was looking forward to it when the call came in. I had walked down to watch him fly his remote control plane for a few minutes before we took off on our walk when the pager woke me from my dream of call Utopia. Yes it is almost like not being on call when no calls come in and I often times forget that I am on call and am quite unsettled when the pager goes off…"What's that noise?"

All that to say my night did not turn out as planned. So here I am sitting at my kitchen table in a rather relaxed mood.

I enjoy these times of tranquil meditation, as my thoughts pass along in no real direction and I am neither depressed nor overly joyful…just at peace.

These are the times I relish putting my thoughts down on "paper".

There is not a lot of chaos and the Lord just seems to lay a peace that passes understanding on my mind.

This seems to be "one of those years". Some of you have bad days, some bad weeks, I seem to be having a bad year and that is exactly how I had been categorizing it too. You would not want to get me into a wrestling ring right now and here is why: Because of all that has happened this year I have been doing a lot of wrestling in prayer with the Lord. And through these times the Lord has brought me to understand that the times should not be looked on as "bad" but as times to let go of more of this world and look back at what God has done in my life through these times of testing. It has been a real epiphany for me and I know all this but I was not grounded in it, I had worked very hard all my life to avoid these very situations and the kicker is that if I would have given in sooner I would not have had to suffer so much. Suffering is not always bad.

One area that has grown is my desire for the lost. I will not say I am passionate about the lost but I have more and more of a heart for them and my prayer life is reflecting that concern. I am actively asking for open doors to share the gospel, I am trying to be more purposeful in my dealings with people and I have been asking God to fill me with His Spirit (take control of my life) and with the love and compassion He has for those who do not know Him. I am actually excited about this!

If you find that the mistakes of your past are catching up to you or have steam rolled you do what I have done—Turn it over to God. Yes it is most likely you will have to pay for the mistakes you made such as being stupid with finances or dealing with an unwanted pregnancy, etc. but God does not turn away from us even when we turn away from Him. Confess your sins to Him and give over to Him the problems in prayer. He will forgive you and you will find a peace that you can't understand, can't figure out how you can be at peace when things are so dark. It is God! He loves us and sometimes lets us suffer the consequences of our choices to help us realize that His ways are the best ways.

 

Monday, July 23, 2007

What’s in a Name? – July 23, 2007

I started getting some names to pop into my new story. I have officially titled the book "Guardians of Light" at least right now. Writing is a dynamic process and things can change…Stay tuned.

This has been a struggle for me because usually I have names that I try to throw into a plot pot. This time I have a plot but the characters aren't showing up. I have had to go out and conscript them to the story. I am feeling like the names may change but for now I am OK with them.

In an attempt to overcome the procrastination monster I worked on my story all weekend. (Please don't get the idea I worked on it all day all weekend but, I consider that I worked on it if I open my notebook and jot down a line or two! Hey, at least I'm writing!) Anyway I did spend an hour or two each of the past three days working on the book and, when I wanted to give up because junk was coming out of my pen instead of cleverly phrased sentences rife with breath taking details and descriptions, I sat back down and wrote some more junk. It felt kinda good…

Well, not only did I get some character names but I was able to produce some country names and add more detail to my map. (I love maps! A good book is not so good unless it comes complete with a map!)

I also wrote out four pages of the prologue. I felt pretty good although it was a rough draft. THANK the LORD it was only a first draft! It is full of junk and garbage, but as they say, "One man's junk is another man's treasure". Maybe this will prove to be the case here as well.

 

Bye for now!

Monday, July 16, 2007

The Story Grooowwwsss—July 16, 2007

 

 

We held the 6th Annual Grady Paul Larson Memorial Softball Tournament this weekend and it could not have been better! The Lord blessed us with beautiful weather, a great crowd, and twelve teams.

I was able to go around and talk to people attending the games, to some of the players, and soak up some great fellowship. It was great fun!

We raised about 2/3 of the coast of the Make-A-Wish trip, around $4400.00, which was lower than what we had hoped but the contacts we made and the lives the Lord touched through this tournament were worth all the efforts! We really praise Him for all He has done!

I have a bad habit of forgetting to put sunscreen on so I am red as a lobster, again and all that fellowshippin' wears me out! I love it as it is happening but when it is over I am drained to the very bottom of my being and need to quiet down time to recover. But I do love it!

Now to the story... I have mentioned in the past being frustrated with material within seven to ten pages of writing and not being able to move forward with the story. The other night\morning I was able to get three pages of outline completed and, upon review, the story is a good one and the ideas keep coming! Praise the Lord! I now have SEVEN, count them, SEVEN pages just in the outline! WOW! I am so pumped right now! I can't wait to get home and start working on this again!

I need character names, a map, and names for the locations on the map but the ideas for the story just keep coming!

Even if this story never goes anywhere as far as being publish or sold, it will mean so much to me to get a whole story written. I feel confident that once I have done one complete story, the process will be easier for the next story. Not the writing or the actual work, but I will have had experience putting together a whole novel so I could then use that as a template for future work! Cool!

And work it will be! Getting the ideas and the outline, though time consuming, is the easy part…I now have to write the story. I have to make the characters come to life with personality and struggles. I need to create scenes that are believable and place the reader in the scene. I need to create a plot line that will draw the reader into the story and not let go! This excites me and scares me at the same time! I am excited because I really believe I can do it and it scares me because can I REALLY do it? Won't know unless I try! I try I will! I am ready to work. The next objective is to see if I can find a permanent home for my writing work. I have to clean up my mess after each writing session and this is a pain. A nice office space would be wonderful, to just spread out and not have to worry about starting over each day. Oh well, that is another story!

Bye for now! I will keep ya'll posted!

May the Lord guide you to His will!

Friday, July 13, 2007

Attack of the Sleep Snatchers! – July 13, 2007

The Sleep Snatchers strike again! There was a time when I dreaded not being able to sleep. The fear that I would not be my best the next day (or in a couple of hours, whatever!) probably exacerbated the problem.

Tossing, turning, envying my wife as she sleeps soundly and thinking to myself "Two more hours before the alarm goes off! Ugh!".

I have learned that if I can't sleep it is a great time to think. I am not suggesting that you take this time to make critical decisions about the course of your life or what you should have for breakfast but it is a great time to muse about a good many things. Indeed, my mind won't shut off so, like it or not, I think about a good MANY things.

I am learning, slowly, painfully, grudgingly to stop procrastinating.

If something comes into my mind that I need to do I have been trying to at least write myself a note…immediately. It amazes me how much stress this can actually relieve! I know I won't forget what needs to be done, now that I have it written down! (Now, if I could only find the note…)

Last night/this morning was no exception. I have been under a great deal of stress lately which has been driving me to my knees before the Father which, in and of itself, is a good thing. I certainly need more of that but I am REALLY tired of the stress. I also fear losing the stress as I believe it is what actually flows in my veins instead of blood. Yikes!

I spent time in prayer, and thought through some of the points of stress in my life and finally decided I could get to sleep…Nope! No such luck.

I have to believe there has to be some calorie burning benefit from tossing and turning, I can flip really fast!

Almost two AM. That means when you all were safely into deep REM sleep my eyes were looking at the leaves fluttering in the light breeze outside my bedroom window and my mind was a whirlwind of thoughts.

And then, in one instant of time, another story idea popped into my head and got me excited. It is not pretty when I get an exciting thought at two AM, believe me. I was so excited about this story idea I turned over and tried to back to sleep. That didn't work either. Those vicious Sleep Snatchers!

Popping out of bed (when you get to be as old as I am it really is POPPING!), I grabbed my trusty writing notebook and proceeded to the kitchen.

I sat down and started outlining the idea and when I finished I had three pages of outline! I was stunned! I had never had that much material for a story that seems to have substance. So cool!

I have not gone back and looked at this "masterpiece" today and it is possible that the late night Sleep Snatchers tricked me into thinking I had a cool idea, it has happened before, but I was pretty coherent, I didn't put it off until today, (tomorrow, the next day, the day after that…)I went right to work. Forty minutes later, that would be 2:40 AM for those of you keeping score, and I thought All right! I can now go to bed, and I did, but this story tumbled around my head for another hour so the Sleep Snatchers won again.

Oh well, if I do have a potentially good story waiting in my notebook at home it will be well worth it!

I get discouraged with all these false starts to the stories I have had lately but then I read that other authors, authors that have actually had material published and made it onto the best seller lists, have poured hundreds of thousands of words and many false starts before they finally broke in. It's a practice thing, I guess.

That is heartening to me and excites me more. I am steadily climbing this writing ladder and maybe one day I can change the title of this blog to the NOT SO Lazy Writer! I will let you know when that day arrives.

 

For now, I bid you good day and may you always look to Jesus for your strength and courage.

 

Fight the good fight today!

 

Greg

 

Thursday, July 5, 2007

A Story Takes Form—July 5, 2007

I just finished reading a great book on dialogue called, oddly enough, "Writing Dialogue". It's late, or I should say very early and I can't remember the author's name. Sorry!

In it I found some great tips and I wanted to practice so a story idea popped into my head and I started to write; without an outline even! Gasp! I hate writing without an outline. I like to know where I am going and, it does not squash my creativity. It's really a guideline and not a set-in-stone document.

Anyway, I start writing this story to practice what I just learned (Pretty smart, huh?!) and I realize that I have a story that I am interested in.

At this point I sit down and start fleshing this out a bit more…

After the dialogue book I picked up another book of inspiration for writers by Terry Brooks, a fantasy writer.

In it he says when creating a world we need to have dream time. This is a time of sitting around and dreaming about the world you want to create. Let go and be creative! I really liked this plan though I have heard it also called brainstorming. Brainstorming sounds too business-like and dream time, to me, just sounds more creative so I have adopted the term. I will keep brainstorming in the business world.

Anyway, in two 2 hour sittings, with no outline I banged out six pages! That is the best production I have had on one piece of work since I started this madness known as writing.

I have also spent about two hours of dream time and that has proven to be beneficial as well. There are some cool things that could happen with this story. I'll keep you posted.

 

Bye for now!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Tag – I’m It? –June 26, 2007

Well, I have been tagged. I don't recall the last time I was tagged and the problem I have with this is that I only know 3 people who blog so Greg, your six names is a huge daunting task for me!

Here goes:

  1. I have a problem with reading as some people have with watching tv.
  2. I think too much and don't act on those thoughts enough.
  3. I love hiking in the woods when it's snowing.
  4. I love to watch cartoons, my favorite is "Dexter's Lab"
  5. I love to write but I'm not too good at it…yet
  6. I love to take long car rides as long as I have a good supply of books on cd.
  7. Chocolate chip cookies and milk are the way to my heart.
  8. Seven items is the extent of my list because I value your sanity!

Ok there are my eight things. And now for the last part (I am a rule follower. Opps! That's #9—My Bad!)J

Greg H(You're my writing inspiration), Kelly(It's time for YOU to get a blog as well!), Ross (I feel like I know you because I hear so much about you from Greg so I am applying blog-peer pressure as well! J), Jenna( I have seen your blog and love it!), Alyssa( Get a blog, girl!)

I am stopping here. That would be…let me see…1…2…3…4…5… Five.

That should encourage you, Greg! I have fewer friends than you and one of those is my daughter! LOL!

 

Bye!

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

About Time! – June 19, 2007

It is hard to believe but I am back. It has been almost two months since my last missive and I have missed writing to this blog.

The biggest struggle was what to say so I said nothing.

 

On Writing:

I was lamenting the fact that I seemed to be on this writing trip alone with no support. It was a pity party and it was my fault, not anyone else's.

I often get encouragement from friends and…family. Family is where I really felt the lack of support, however. That is until Father's Day.

I had a really nice Father's Day with the family even though Alyssa was not overly thrilled with going to the Kernals baseball game but she was a trooper.

Logan got to go onto the field and throw with his friends for about 30 minutes after the game which was fun for him and I enjoyed watching the whole thing. I love to see my family having fun!

When we got home they had me open my Father's Day gift and along with some much needed clothes I received a good book on plotting and then it struck me like a ton of bricks: My family is very supportive of my writing! As I look back over the past year they always are buying me new tools for my writing "workshop" and that, to me, is tremendous support so I was wrong once again! (I stopped tracking all the wrong things I did(do) a long time ago! J)

I praise the Lord for my family and friends.

There are times I seem to really flounder but they all keep encouraging in their own loving ways. I take all the comments and advice in with a great sense of love and it has been encouraging.

As I look back on the time since I first was encouraged to start writing and the storyline I came up with at that time, I see a nebulous mass of ideas that just seemed to be floating about aimlessly. Since this was happening nothing was really being put on paper and I despaired of ever getting a story on paper. Maybe, I would think, I am thinking too grandiose and I should try short stories, but my heart will not give up on the idea of a novel and that is where I am going, full steam ahead!

Over the past couple of years this nebulous cloud has condensed and the ideas are becoming firmer. Each new idea adds to the overall picture that is forming in my mind and becoming more of a reality.

Now, I realize that this first story, or any after it for that matter, may not go anywhere but if I can get through a whole novel and be happy with it that would be very good. I still would not be satisfied without being published but there would be a great deal of satisfaction to just finish a book.

I now have one full page of a 30,000 foot view of the story and the pieces coalesce into a tighter and tighter picture and that just excites me to no end!

I am more excited now than I have ever been about this project and actually feel like I have a purpose for this story.

I know it is still not a walk in the park and a ton of hard work still awaits but I am really looking forward to this challenge. I want to create like my Heavenly Father who created me!

This all started when I turned over all of this to the Lord's will.

He has now been giving me the discipline and the ideas to move forward.

He makes me want to be more diligent.

Keep praying for me as I endeavor to glorify Him through this work!

 

Bye for now! Thanks for listening.

 

Greg

Monday, April 30, 2007

Short but Sweet—April 30th

Well, I am heading out of town for almost two weeks on business starting tomorrow, May 1. I am planning to use my evenings in the hotel room to organize my thoughts and start writing my story. I have a lot of ideas floating around and have had a hard time focusing to get those thoughts organized so I can write.

I have discovered that I am not able to go very far when I just sit a write unless I have a plan, better known as an outline! This is what I am hoping to get created, at least, during my time away.

Please pray that I can focus long enough to get some good things accomplished!

Good bye for now!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Anniversaries—April 24, 2007

In about 3 plus more years I will be married to my beautiful wife for 20 years! It does not seem like it has been that long!

At their fiftieth wedding anniversary my wife's grandmother stated that, "We've been married FOREVER…It just seems longer!" What a hoot! I still get a chuckle out of that comment!

Well, yesterday marked a five year anniversary, one that is not so fun, the passing of Grady Paul Larson.

He was five years old when the Lord took him and I have to admit I am envious of him! He is living THE life right now with no more tears or pain! I am so grateful to Jesus for what He has done for us and though I miss Grady so much, I am so very glad he is in Heaven with Jesus right now and forevermore!

I take the day (April 23rd) off to be with my wife so she does not have to spend the time alone but the day does not affect me as much. In fact, as I go through the year there are days that his memories blow into my mind so strongly that tears flow but there is usually no rhyme or reason for the memories.

As I watch my other two children grow I often wonder what Grady would have been like now, had he survived. He would have been ten years old and…I just can't seem to imagine how he would be because as I see my other children grow they have changed from how I would have pictured them at this age when they were younger and all I can see in my mind's eye is how Grady was at five years old. This is one thing that makes me sad because I would love to see him right now.

The loss of a loved one is never easy, whether it is a parent or a child, and it is by the grace of God alone, that Grady keeps touching lives.

A kind man and friend started a softball tournament the year before Grady died and the money he raised was used to fund our Make-A-Wish trip to Disney World in Florida. It was a great family time! Since then the tournament has had a name change and is called The "Grady Paul Larson Softball Tournament". We hold this event every year and we even have a website. If you are interested in seeing Grady's picture and to learn more about this legacy of his go to www.gplfoundation.org. Not only do we raise funds for the Make-A-Wish group but we have been using this tournament to reach out and share the good news of Jesus Christ with others through special guest speakers. Last year we were blessed to have Major League Baseball pitching great, Cal Eldred speak and he shared a wonderful testimony of how God has changed his life and used him to further the kingdom of God.

 

Good bye for now!

 

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Dinner With Jesus – April 19, 2007

What if you had a chance to sit down to a meal at a nice restaurant with Jesus Christ? You could ask him anything you wanted and look him straight in the eyes as you chatted with Him.

This is the scenario in the movie "The Perfect Stranger". To alleviate any confusion this is NOT the recently released R rated movie "Perfect Stranger".

The story is about a troubled suburban wife whose husband is the CEO of a major cooperation and she is a lawyer in a powerful law firm.

Their relationship has not had the attention it should have and the strain is telling. To top it all off, the neighbors have been pestering her to come to some of their church events. This night her husband has made plans to attend a ball game which leaves her alone for Friday night. This does not make her at all happy!

At work that morning she receives a mysterious invitation to meet with Jesus Christ for supper. She assumes that this is her husband teasing her and gets excited that he has changed his mind.

At the restaurant that night, she discovers a stranger at the table where she expected to meet her husband and is taken aback.

She decides to leave but Jesus talks her into staying for dinner.

Once she relaxes she is able to question Jesus on many different subjects and He is actually quite clever with His answers.

How does the evening end? You will need to see the movie because I won't spoil it for you! J

However, what really touched me was the fact that the whole scene was so personal and I thought about the fact that Jesus wants to have this kind of intimate relationship with all of us! I could not help but to shed tears. Yes, the man was an actor but it was the concept that really touched me. God has gone to great lengths to establish a personal relationship with all of us here on earth and there is nothing He would not do to bring each one of us into His kingdom, except force us. His love compels but He will not force us, we need to make that decision ourselves. He will help us change if we decide to turn to Him but He will never force us.

The most notable passages of scripture to me are the ones where there are intimate moments with God. This could be thinking about a walk in the garden with Him before the fall or Nicodemus around the fire with Jesus that night of John 3:16.

My most intimate moments with God come when I am alone and walking.

I don't know why I feel closest to Him during those moments but I have had some of the sweetest fellowship with Him on these walks. It is not always euphoric but these moments are the greatest and I am humbled and excited about the times with which He blesses me!

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Introducing: Nilkus—April 12, 2007

OK (DEEP Breath) This is a part of a story I started a long time ago and have been playing with in my mind but I have not sat down to work out the details of where I want this story to go. This part is not necessarily the start of the whole but it was an exercise in character development. I have done little to no editing and if you have comments I would gladly hear them.

The beginning of this whole story has evolved (YES I said EVOLVED, changed in many ways from the original thought!)and it is the basis for the way I named this blog as I have done. I have been too lazy to take real time to sit down and shape this story in which I have so many pieces! I will share more of it later. I would appreciate any comments.

Nilkus awoke with a start, squinting as he glanced around the room, eyes blood shot from lack of sleep.

Where am I he thought as his mind struggled against the confusion that dominated his sleep deprived mind.

Sun light streamed in through high windows and the candles which had, only a few hours ago, lit his small study which served as his home away from home, had gone out.

Memory crashed in on him as a wave against the rocky shore.

Ahh yes! It looks as if I've done it again! He chastened himself as once again he had neglected the fundamentals of life. When was the last time he had eaten, or bathed for that matter?

He stood and stretched his diminutive body as bones creaked and a groan slipped from his mouth.

I must stop doing this, I'm much too old to be sleeping at my work bench. This is the third time this week!

He smoothed back his long, thin, white hair and hobbled over to the water basin against the far wall splashing his face. After splashing water on his face he sat back down and surveyed his work from the previous night.

"Let me see," he mumbled as he leafed through the stacks of meticulous notes, looking first at one and then another and yet again at one lying on the bench in front of him.

"Hmmm…," setting the papers down he closed his eyes and stroked his white beard thoughtfully.

The answer had to be there, it had to be. He had not spent his entire life searching for these scrolls only to find that they did not contain the answers he sought!

Think Nilkus, think!

A sudden thought came to him. Scrounging around the piles of scrolls he discovered the one he was looking for near the bottom. Of course it would be the last scroll that I touched, he thought ruefully, but oh well, if it has what I am looking for I will have the answer I seek! Well, at least the start of the answer anyway.

Carefully unrolling the precious scroll he started scanning for the same symbols he had seen at Norgoth in the ruined temple. The symbols had importance because of their position in regards to the black sun that the ancient Norgoths worshiped. The symbol was the shape of an oblong diamond with no discernable lid but appeared to contain some sort of liquid. The liquid seemed to be associated with learning or understanding.

Nilkus felt a chill run up his spine like a serpent on a stone. He chuckled with delight when he realized that this was what he had been searching for all of his life!

The implications of what his studies had concluded were beyond his wildest dreams!

He had never turned away anything that added to his collection of knowledge. He had adventured where most would have been terrified to go and not thought a moment about it because he focused on the end result, more knowledge.

He had always been inquisitive and curious about his world. His parents, being scholars, had encouraged his pursuit of the riches of the mind and had let him into the library at an age when the Keepers frowned on young ones being in the same building as the delicate writings.

But he had learned a respect for-no a reverence for-the wealth that those dusty old scrolls contained. He had always loved mind games and searching out mysteries. He hadn't had many friends because while the other kids would play he would be in the library soaking in the words and symbols he found within.

And now that he was past his prime he thought back through the years of his life with no regrets. Not too many people found a passion for something early in life and let that same passion carry them through to their last breath. He was happy but never, ever content, there was always more to learn.

His passion had demanded a price though, and that was isolation. There were very few who could relate to him and so he found that more and more he was alone. That did nag at him on an occasion but for the most part he could shake it off with a few hours in his study.

There was one exception, Sola Swan.

Sola had been a soldier, indeed a Blade Master for the King for twenty years before he realized his true love was to learn.

One day shortly after his departure from the military he wandered into the library looking for records on the Horseshoe Mountains. Nilkus was there pouring over a scroll containing the potion for memory enhancement when he ran into Sola.

"Excuse me, sir," Sola said to the old gentleman seated at the table next to his.

"Sir?"

"Well, what do you want," Nilkus asked with just a hint of irritation in his voice as he looked up to see a tall muscular man standing over him.

"My father is an adventurer and has just come back from the Horseshoe Mountains with tales of a strange four legged creature roaming about in the foothills. I had to find some reference to these creatures that I might pass on to him or utilize myself should I decide to study the beast further, but I am having little success locating any information on the Horseshoe Mountains let alone anything about its inhabitants."

Nilkus stared at this hulking human for a moment measuring him. He wanted nothing to do with this fellow in yet there was something about him...

With a sigh he motioned for the young man to be seated.

"What is your name young man," Nilkus asked having gained a measure of self-control.

"Sola Swan, sir, at your service," said the young man with a great deal too much cheerfulness.

"Sola Swan…Sola Swa…wait, are you in anyway attached to an Adden Swan?"

"Yes sir, he is my father."

"Well, Well," exclaimed the old scholar, rubbing his hands together, "I do know Adden Swan. He has been most valuable to me as he has brought me many fine items for me to study," the old man said with a far off look in his eyes, "I have learned much from his travels! Have you ever gone with him?"

"No. When I was younger my mother would not allow it and I have only now been relieved of my military duties. I have really not had a desire to go with him but my heart is to learn, to be a scholar," Sola said with passion in his voice.

Nilkus sat back and looked at the ex-soldier for a time, studying his face. There is something about this young man, something truthful and genuine.

Nilkus cleared his throat, "Young man," he began, "how would you like to become my apprentice? I am getting on in years and I don't want to loose what I have spent an entire lifetime collecting, treasure beyond imagination: knowledge!"

"I accept sir," Sola said grinning from ear to ear.

That was now twenty years gone by. Not only had Sola proven to be a wonderful student, but a good friend.

Now with this new discovery Nilkus could not wait to get to Sola and explain his findings!

 

 

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Gifts Given—April 11, 2007

This is how Webster's online dictionary defines a GIFT:

2: something voluntarily transferred by one person to another without compensation

I don't know anyone, at least within my web of relationships anyway, who does not like getting gifts. A gift can bring a certain amount of happiness and even touch someone's heart.

As military personnel they warned us that the Japanese like to give gifts and if you give a gift in return they feel obligated to give a better gift and so on. They call this a gift war. If you find yourself in a gift war the way out is to stop giving gifts. Fore warned was fore armed and, though I had a great time trading hats and decks of cards, etc. the gift giving with my host was benign. In the end he gave to me a beautiful geisha doll that is in my house to this day. It was a special gift to me and I will never forget my two week stent in Japan.

The thing about gifts is that they are useless to the one the gift is given to unless they accept the gift.

Every year my wife's grandfather gives each of us cash instead of gifts in the traditional sense. What good would it do me if I did not reach out and accept the money that was given to me? It is not given because it is owed to me nor is it given because I deserve it but out the goodness of granddad's heart, something voluntarily transferred by one person to another WITHOUT compensation. J

In a similar way God offers each one of us a gift. It costs us nothing and is voluntarily transferred from Him to us WITHOUT compensation. In fact, there is no way we could ever deserve this gift even if we are good.

God's word says clearly that all of our righteous deeds are like filthy rags. We cannot do enough good things to earn what God has set for us as a standard to enter heaven. Perfection is His standard and His word also says that there has never been, no one currently, nor will there ever be anyone who can meet His ridged requirements for entering His presence.

One notable exception: Jesus God's own Son. He came to this earth, faced the same temptations as we do but without sin, a spotless lamb who then voluntarily laid down His life freely so that He could meet the righteous requirements of God's standard. Without this gift we cannot hope to spend eternity with God in Heaven. If you believe you need to do good things to please God and thus get into Heaven here are some questions for you to ponder: How many good things do you have to do? What is the standard? How do you know when you get there? Does one bad thing you do nullify the good things you have done? How far would you fall into the "hole" if you did one bad thing? God's word says that if you trust Him and accept his free gift through faith in Jesus you do not have to worry about doing things to please Him because Jesus did all the work for us as a perfect sacrifice.

Ephesians 2:8-10 says this quite succinctly:

"8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast. 10For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do".

These good works spoken of here are not to win God's favor but an expression of thanksgiving for what God has done for us. What a great gift! It costs us nothing but it cost God everything.

Think about these words today and if you find you need peace and freedom from the things this world offers as freedom accept God's gift and you will begin a journey that leads to peace and contentment even in this world.

 

Good bye for now!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

‘Thinking’ Thoughts—April 10, 2007

I have been doing a lot of thinking about leadership the past couple of years and in fact had applied for several new management positions within our company as the we went through a reorganization. This reorg was not to down size but to add people, position us for the growth anticipated. We are currently adding forty plus new positions. That is a great praise! The Lord has blessed this company.

Anyway, in the process of trying to grow myself I have been reading leadership books and getting involved with whatever activity I can to improve my skills as a leader.

The books I have been reading come primarily from author John Maxwell. He brings a godly perspective while he delivers principles to help us to grow in our leadership abilities.

One thing that seems to haunt my thoughts is vision. Maxwell says that without vision a leader is really just going in circles. Vision is what drives a leader.

I want to establish a life vision. I want this to be based on what God has gifted me to do, what His will is for my life, how I can encourage people in their walks. If they are believers, encourage them to continue to fight the good fight and if they are not believers turn their thoughts to God and what He can do through Jesus in their lives.

Two ways I would like to do this:

  1. Writing. By using mediums such as this blog and other future outlets for writing I hope to get people to think. I have discovered that people don't tend to like to like to make decisions under the gun so with the written word people are able to read and reread and make decisions after taking time to ponder the ideas presented.
  2. Walking. One thing that really energizes me is to take a brother in Christ on a walk and just talk over the things of God. I could do that all day! Especially if there are mountains! In Iowa that is a luxury we do not have, but there are some wonderful places to walk. I enjoy building relationships. I am always excited to meet someone new. This in spite of the fact that I am an introvert. Crowds or parties wear me to the bone and I could do without them but one on one time is a great source of energy for me.

 

Anyway, this blog, though not seen by many, is a way for me to throw out ideas for people to muse over, food for thought if you will. I don't claim any special wisdom just taking from my life experiences and what I have learned from God's word, the ultimate source of wisdom, and putting them out for people to see and think about.

I really believe that God has given us minds to use as part of our being created in His image. We have creativity, wills, understanding, and emotions, all characteristics found throughout scripture of God.

Created in the image of God. We have come so far by using our minds and I am amazed at what we, as the human race, have been able to accomplish just in my lifetime…some forty plus years.

I have to admit with sorrow that not all of these accomplishments are to God's glory and some are to try and remove glory from Him but no matter how man twists the knife, the bottom line is that it is because of God's gifts to us that we are able to accomplish the things we do.

Each day has become exciting to me because I don't know what God has planned for each day! Extreme sports participants have nothing on the adrenaline rush I get each day wondering what God will do with this brand new day! So cool! It may not always be to my liking when the day reveals God's plan but I know that the worst of circumstances that come into my life God will use for His glory and my edification. What a great God we serve! Sovereign over all!

 

Well, this is 'so long' for now. Have a God filled day and may He bless you in ways you would never expect!

 

Good-Bye!

Sunday, April 8, 2007

The Day After—April 9, 2007

Oh Lord our God so loving and caring

You came to die our sins fully bearing

 

You paid the price so we could live

There was nothing more You could give

 

Without Your help we all would be lost

We will never be able to know the cost

 

But the grave was no end for You Oh God

Death could not keep you under the sod

 

Rising again You removed death's sting

Now in our hearts great joy and gladness ring.

 

Holy Week is now over and usually this means that my thoughts of Easter are put away until next year like the Easter baskets and pastel colors of the season. It is so easy for me to take for granted what God has so richly lavished on us. Ephesians chapter 1 is a wonderful outline for what God has done for us in Christ Jesus. I believe that we are still unable to fully comprehend what He REALLY has done for us, but it gives us a taste of what we have in Christ.

This year is different. Easter is gone but the Holy Spirit will not leave me alone to move on…and I am so excited about that!

This past week has presented many new and unusual challenges spiritually.

I have almost fully come out of a dark funk that God has used to draw me closer to Him, I had a minor run-in with an atheist, and briefly slipped back into that funk. But God…But God has taught me to trust Him and to bring all things before His throne of grace and through the painful lessons learned I have been able, this very night, to praise God with a full heart!

I am no poet but I have been reading A. W. Tozer's "Knowledge of The Holy" (HIGHLY recommended by the way!) and there a number of poems directed at the heart of God that have stirred me and as I was on my walk tonight, praying and meditating on God's word these words came to me. If you write poetry or even have some knowledge of it I apologize but I just needed to get the words out! Form was not so important to me but I would not turn a deaf ear to any constructive criticisms either! LOL!

God has taken the events of Matthew 26-28 and opened my eyes to see so many wonderful treasures stored in those few brief passages. Not hidden but you won't find them unless you seek. If you knock it will be opened to you. God wants us to seek Him out. He is always there for us and will not forsake us but He wants us to seek after Him. He can and will be found but we need to put forth the effort. Just as in a friendship or marriage we don't just sit around hoping that the relationship will grow and get better. No indeed, we need to put forth effort and sometimes it is hard and sometimes it takes us away from what we really would like to be doing. The reward is peace beyond understanding, transcending what we can comprehend. Joy unspeakable! But it is not easy! It takes work.

When I find myself distracted and drawn away by this world, doing things I want to do or things I think will bring peace, I soon find out that I am stuck in a hole that only my God can get me out of. He sometimes uses His word and sometimes other people to help; or maybe a combination of these items but He always is waiting for us to turn back to Him and what He offers: true peace, true happiness, true joy. Isn't this what we are all seeking to some degree? God offers it to us free of charge.

 

OK I am done for now. I have a bunch more to write but I think that I could actually spread this out over a few blog sessions instead of trying to cram my whole heart into one blog!

 

Good bye for now! Fight the good fight and turn to God for ALL things! He cares and is waiting for you.

 

 

 

 

 

Friday, April 6, 2007

An Oxymoron? – April 6, 2007

Today is Good Friday. When I think about this sometimes it feels like an oxymoron. We call it 'good' but Jesus, the Perfect one died this day, the innocent for the guilty. How can that be good? We look on in disdain if that sort of thing happens in our world today but back then they could not even get two people to agree on what He had done to deserve death. It all came about because of the jealousy of the religious leaders of the day.

This was all part of God's master plan, however. Without Jesus going to the cross we would still be lost in our sins and our deaths would, indeed, be the end, ceaseless torment and eternal separation from the God who created us.

There is good news and that good news is that Jesus did not stay in the grave, three days later He rose from the dead proving He is God and creating the bridge we so desperately needed to get to Heaven and avoiding the fate we were destined for, hell.

From this it is clear to me that we are indeed doing this day a disservice by calling it "Good Friday", it is much more than that, we should be calling it "Very Good Friday"!

For those of us who have placed our trust in Christ we also see a clear picture of our future. When our mortal bodies die and we are buried we will not stay there! We will be resurrected into glory with brand new bodies someday and live with God for the rest of eternity!

Praise the Lord! I cannot even comprehend what wonders we will see and what life will be like living daily in His very presence with no distractions, no sorrow, no sin; just plain and simple worship, free and unhindered. What a blessed day that will be when our faith becomes sight and we are finally released from all that ties us down here on this planet. Wow! It is not saying much but I can think of nothing else to say.

 

Good bye for now! Have a blessed Easter and meditate on what God has done for us, all of us!

Thursday, April 5, 2007

A Test of Courage—April 5, 2007

On the night Jesus was betrayed He took His disciples with Him to Gethsemane and asked them to pray with Him. He was burdened and He needed prayer, needed His friends to stand with Him in this hour of great need.

He left the majority at a certain spot and took His three closest friends with Him a ways farther. He then left them there to "watch and pray" and He went farther still.

There was no fanfare, no formal preparation, He just fell down at the Father's feet and prayed, fervently prayed. He prayed with such intensity that He was actually sweating blood.

It is my belief that Jesus did not want to die. He knew what lay ahead of Him and baulked. He could have laid this burden aside and bypassed all the agony He faced. After all, He was perfect and truly did not deserve to die. We were the ones who deserved death. Not just physical death but also the second death, spiritual death, separation forever from the God who created us. He would have had perfect right to do this…But He did not.

Three times He sought release from this destination and three times He showed us true character and courage by telling the Father, "Not MY will but YOUR will be done…" (Emphasis mine). I don't think there were ever more courageous words spoken. Jesus had a mission from His Father and He courageously pushed past the temptation to call on the protection He alone deserves. Twelve legions of angels! Who could take Him with that wall of warriors surrounding Him? He did not avail Himself of that protection. He laid aside His rights so that we the helpless ones, could have the doors of salvation opened to us. A mission and courage. Courage and a mission.

There is no greater love than one lay down his life for his friends…

Jesus, perfect God, perfect man, WILLINGLY laid His life down for us, we who truly deserved to be put to death.

Courage is not the absence of fear but the determination to move forward in spite of the fear.

With just the slightest observation we can see an example that blows our socks off. We are not often, in this country, called on to lay down our life in the name a great cause. Jesus did not have a good cause. He came to pay the price for ungrateful rebels who not only could not conceive of who He was but also, with no evidence at all, asked that a murderous rebel be released and He be crucified. I can't say that I would not have been one of these ungrateful ones and, indeed, I find myself ungrateful even knowing all of this. Hindsight is 20/20 but it does not mean we learn from it. God, however, looked at us in pity and love and felt we were a good cause and He paid the price we deserved to pay.

Thank God He loved us so much that he sent His one and only Son to suffer and die so that we could live with Him in paradise forever.

There is a lot to think about in this one particular passage of scripture.

 

 

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Atheistic Wonderings – April 4, 2007

This is a little off the beaten path from what I had intended but I thought I would throw it out here today because it is weighing heavily on my heart.

I have never had this happen to me before and when things like this happen they cause me to think and I have been thinking today.

I have a little phrase in the signature of my email that says, "Soli Deo Gloria": All glory to God, translated.

I have had several emails asking what it means and sometimes I have had encouragement back from the people who see the words but I have never had a negative response until today.

Today I was dealing, via email, with a customer who wrote back in a polite manner and told me that this could be an offensive phrase to Catholics and, since this person was atheist, offensive in other ways as well.

I took some time to analyze this whole "encounter" and sent it to a pastor friend of mine to see what he would say.

He indicated that I should not worry about it as this person was not someone I deal with regularly and this person is also not my supervisor nor, might I add, coming from a majority view point.

What can I say here? I took it to the Lord in prayer and here is what I have concluded:

An atheist is one who does not believe in 'deity'. In other words, from my perspective they believe that there is nothing out there of the 'higher power' sort. This then tells me that if they are offended by religious leanings then they are offended by nothing. If they don't believe in a god or God then why are they offended about my belief and my adoption of a little phrase to encourage others? I can tell you that I am not offended by 'nothing' so I find it odd that an atheist would be offended by what they themselves would consider nothing. It makes me say 'hmmm'.

The best thing I can think of right now is to pray for the atheists in our lives. We are not equipped to change the heart of another but God, through the Holy Spirit can change their hearts and has changed hearts in some instances.

 

 

Good bye for now.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Catch-22—April 3, 2007

As I have been thinking about this most holy of weeks, Easter week, I have been drawn to a short passage, John 3:16-17.

John 3:16 is probably the most familiar verse from God's word.

In fact, we can at times take this familiar verse somewhat for granted.

It is the most concise verse on God's love, but sometimes we take this verse and make it a kind of theology in and of itself. That theology is that God is love and being love could never allow us harm or ill will. Pain and suffering would be unthinkable! God is love! Remember?

This is true, God is love but it is only a part of the story.

God is perfect and holy and in His holiness He can't tolerate sin; sin of any kind. A "white" lie violates His holiness as much as murder or rape! Is this hard to grasp? It does not always make sense to us but the more we get to know God the more He helps us to understand His holiness and we can then gain a better grasp of this truth. Sin is sin. Period. God does not differentiate and no one will escape His judgments. They are right and true and He has all the evidence to convict, He has the right to convict. "He who makes the rules, rules", and God rules!

Now the scale tips, the God we thought of as love we now fear as the God of judgment. We need to walk on egg shells and be careful to do things that please Him or else, WHAM! We are goo, a stain on the highway of life! Lightening and the whole shootin' match! Hellfire and brimstone await those who step out of line!

This is also a partial truth. To get a clearer picture we need to step back and see what God's word says in whole and stop taking pieces that tickle our ears or support what we believe we know about God.

God is love AND God is justice. He loves us but He can't set aside our sins because that would violate His character. What can we do with this catch-22?

Enter Jesus. Emmanuel, God with us.

Jesus willing set aside His rights as God to live among us as man and He, though tempted in every way that you and I are, was without sin, a spotless lamb, the perfect sacrifice.

Through His death on the cross, burial, and resurrection three days later the quandary of love vs. justice has been resolved and we are now presented with a gift a choice if you will: eternal life. Did you catch what I said, Gift? It is entirely free, but…Yes but! There is one thing that has to happen…You need to accept the gift. It's there waiting for you with your name on it but you must take it. How do you take it? By faith. By believing that Jesus was who He said He was, God, and that He did what He said He did, died to pay the price for the sins you and I have committed.

In other words, God loved us so much that He was willing to make the ultimate sacrifice to satisfy His holiness and righteous requirements that you and I could never ever pay in our own power. What will YOU do with this knowledge? It is possible to transfer your trust to Jesus on your death bed with your final breath but consider this: When are you going to die? Will you have the luxury of a death bed or will you be stuck down this very hour by a car or heart attack? You don't know? Then NOW is the time to turn to God and accept His awesome gift that He is waiting for you to take. It is free but you must believe.

I will be praying for you.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Where are you?—March 28, 2007

It has come into my mind that you may not be where you want to be today. Not physically but in other aspects of your life. Maybe you’re not feeling well or maybe you are struggling with finances. Perhaps your job is sucking the very heart and soul from you and not the best French-roasted coffee can bring your life to life. I am in one of these places today. I woke up at 0310 this morning remembering the troubles I would be facing today. My first reaction was panic and fear. There is a loss of control in the place where I am at today. I don’t want to be here. I knew what I needed to do and, as always, it worked. What I needed was prayer. Prayer to a Holy and Almighty God who does not turn His back on us even if it feels like He has, He has not. He is there as He is always there. Though He is here and I know He is here it is hard to grasp His hand at times. When we lose control of some area of our lives it means we have to rely on someone or something else and that takes away our choices. We have grown up believing that we have to be independent and self-sufficient. This ingrained thought process causes us to panic in a claustrophobic manner when something in our lives crop up that steals the all-precious control from our hands. We struggle for breath and seek any means necessary to help us to get that control back. When we can’t get control back we run away and try to hide. It is better to run then to be left in a state of helplessness. I believe it was Milton who wrote, “It is better to rule in hell than to serve in Heaven”. Similar thought processes here… This running away can take many forms: drug use, alcohol, or plain and simple running away. I have to admit that I have wanted to, on more than one occasion, fly to a beautiful mountain deep in the Rockies and live a simple life free from the hassles of this life. The problem is that this kind of thinking is “greener grass” thinking. When you are where you do not want to be almost any grass or no grass at all, looks inviting. It is all an illusion, however. We live in a world that has been plagued by sin since around the time of creation and because of that life has become difficult, down-right hard at times. Difficulties are as much of a part of life as breathing. It will strike all of us at one time or another. That is a guarantee. Let me stop here and bring this to a conclusion by looking at this “bad” place that you or I find ourselves in. What if the struggles you and I are facing today are for our benefit? What?! How can troubles and lose of control be beneficial? Huh?! Well, if you would take a close look at the troubles that you faced in the past and look at where you are today, what would you see? What I have seen in my life is that there has been growth, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Growth! My friend Greg pointed out to me during our visit to his home this past weekend that our friendship has grown to where it is today during times of adversity. He and his family stood by us the entire time we were battling with Grady’s cancer and hospital stay. I have to say that he was right and it applies to all areas of our lives. It is good to have times of quietness, happiness, tranquility, and pleasure but those are not the times that help us to grow. In fact, when those times abound I find that I get soft and lethargic. I am not saying I crave the hard times but I have come to realize that God brings these times into our lives to test us and to draw us closer to Him where true peace and comfort comes from. So I have come to the conclusion that even though I am, right now, in a place I do not want to be I think it is a place where God wants me now because that is where He is today. I am comforted. You can take comfort in this place as well. Turn to God, confess your need for Him and you too can fell the “peace that surpasses understanding”. Bye!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

A Bit-o-Laughter-March 21, 2007

I am suspecting that by now many of you out there are wondering how my blog has become so wildly popular. It is difficult to put into words but because I want all of you out there to succeed in your blogging, I will share my secrets with you here and now.

First and foremost you need to get a place to host your blog. If you don't what you will find is your frig pasted with all your "postings" and you will not get very many hits unless, of course, you open your home to the public. Come to think of it, that might be a good way to earn some extra cash but you must realize that you'll have to take the extra step of keeping your place clean. It's all such a give and take proposition! Mind boggling, I know!

You will want to make sure you pay top dollar for a blog site, like I am doing here with Blogger.com. I would not think to pay less! It is worth it to get these missives out to you all! (I have even seen blogs that have pictures! I am serious here, folks! I am not sure how to get my photos out on the web like that. I have tried sticking my pictures from Wal-Mart into the disk drive but the only thing I get is a crunching sort of noise and a few pieces of picture flying from the drive opening, but never a one of them ends up on my blog page! I have even tried crayons, but the problem with that is the pictures you draw never really look like the photos you are trying to emulate and the pictures also hang around the screen no matter what web site you go to. And don't get me started on white out!!) If any of you know how to perform this amazing feat, PLEASE let me know! I will put YOUR name into MY blog giving you full credit for the vast hoards that flock daily to this site to see. Deal?

Another thing you need is a lot of cash. This is useful just in case your blog may not be quite as popular as you think it should be. What you do is this: Take the cash and give it people who own a computer (This is important to remember because without a computer you will need to invite them over to read your refrigerator: keep in mind the cleaning thing mentioned above!) and with cash in hand, these people will usually go out and have a look at your site. (I usually charge $5.00 and I am available.)

I would be remise not to mention the vast number of people that have come and looked at my site! I mean it's the people that really make a site so popular! In fact I would love to name each person individually who have visited my site so far but they would BOTH be embarrassed if I did that!

 

Well I have babbled enough today! I hope you all realize I have just been funning today. I do enjoy the blogging no matter how many (If any) come and read my hen scratching.

I love to read Dave Berry. There is no other author out there that makes me laugh so hard that I cry! I know what you are thinking, "I know Dave Berry, and Greg, you are no Dave Berry!" That is true or I would be called Dave and not Greg, but he inspires me to at least try to be funny once in a while and since this is my site I can do pretty much what I want with it! Good Bye for now! Have a good one!

Oh, by the way, I will be on vacation until NEXT Tuesday, March 27th so I will not be blogging until that time.

 

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Dreams of a Dreamer-March 20, 2007

One of the things that pushed me to write was the fact that I dream. Not your dreams about the future or dreams of becoming successful or even day-dreams but plain old go-to-bed and sleep dreams. Some people can’t remember their dreams or even remember if they dreamed at all but I have been given vivid dreams that, though they are dreams because there is always something that is obviously out of phase with reality, they are dreams that have something happening, just like a story. Although it has only been me that knows much of anything about my dreams and I have never discovered a good scientific method for measuring my dreams, time seems to be different in my dreams. The dream can be so deep and have so much going on that it seems like it was an epic all-night event. Other times I have the same sensation of epic-ness (I may have just coined a new word! J) but I know for a fact I looked at the clock only thirty minutes before the dream started. I have had so many types of dreams. I have had romantic dreams, swashbuckling dreams, nightmares of all sorts and dreams about work (These are actually the worst because I wake up feeling as though I have worked all night!). I have had dreams that I have enjoyed so much that I was actually depressed to wake up and realize that I had been dreaming. I have had dreams that those who believe in Jesus are just waiting for His return. Though no man knows the day of His return in my dreams we do know and are just waiting. That is very exciting! I consider that a great blessing! I have also had dreams that are sinful in nature. I had thought there was nothing I could do about those type of dreams since they were after all dreams, but at some point, I don’t remember who I heard it from or if it just came in to my heart perhaps by the prompting of the Holy Spirit, it come to me to ask God to protect my dreams from those types of imagery and He answered. I now make it a habit to ask Him to guard my dreams before I go to bed each night. That is very cool! We have a little boy, perhaps seven or eight years old, that lives down the block from us and who we have seen at many events at school because I think he has a brother who is of the age to participate with my son in these events, who I believe was born blind. I can’t say for sure because I have never talked to his parents to find out. Anyway, regardless of what his circumstance is, he made me wonder about people who are born blind and maybe even those who have become blind later in life. What do they dream about? Especially if you had been born blind and never had any ocular experiences. Well, I am signing off now and ready for another night of wonder in the land of dreams!

Monday, March 19, 2007

Writing for Life-March 19, 2007

As I look back on my life I have discovered that the times I have most enjoyed were the times I spent writing. It did not matter if I was doing a study from God’s word or if I was simply journaling, I discovered that during those times I found the most peace. Now having said that I don’t consider writing a source of peace in and of itself but I do consider it a gift from God as an outlet for my thoughts that can help me to sort through what is really on my heart. When this happens it often reveals something that I can then take to the Lord in prayer, and the Lord does give true peace. So what I am saying is that writing is a way to get my thoughts organized and help me to see what is really going on. I would consider this type of writing as ‘journaling’. It is not necessarily done for fun but to drain the excess emotion from my life. I would also encourage you to start journaling. You may find it to be a great outlet as well! I write in my journal as though I am talking to someone as this allows me to say what is on my mind and not burden someone else with all my “issues”. I know we are commanded to bear one another’s burdens and I am a full believer that we need to be obedient to that command but I also feel that I have so much to say that I have never opened up completely to anyone because I have way too much to say and I would be afraid of killing a person with all that is on my heart! Journaling is a great way to get everything off my shoulders. I took a long walk out on Indian Creek Nature trail yesterday and it was so good to get out! It seems the last couple of months I have done nothing but lay around and read, which, in and of itself is not bad but when that is all you do you tend to become a little like the sediment that settles to the bottom of a lake, thick and mud-like. Walking by myself or with a friend is something that really energizes me, especially if there are mountains around! ;-) When I take these walks I use the time to muse on any number of things but there are two things that always come to mind: 1) Prayer. I find a solitary walk in the woods is a great time to spend with God in prayer and I have had my most intimate times with the Father during these walks. I prayed for a wife on one such walk many years ago and shortly after I met Kim. JWhenever I need to make a tough decision I walk and talk with my heavenly Father on a beautiful trail somewhere because this is where I feel the closest to Him. I know this is just all in my mind but the results have been very good. Maybe it’s because I am more focused when I walk, I really don’t know, but that is what I seek when I need some good quality time with the Father. I don’t think walking itself adds any “power” to my prayers but I think it is just a better way for me to focus. The other thing I think about is, 2) Writing. I am most inspired when I walk. I have one story idea that has a lot of cultural development that came from walking on this same trail. It all started when I noticed several small “islands” in the middle of the creek that were completely green with grass. I had never seen such a thing and I thought that it looked like islands viewed from a long way up in the air. From there I found several more islands along the trail and began to develop a history as I went along. I remember one late evening I was walking along and worked up a history of one particular island. I had such vivid thoughts of it that I nearly scared myself as I walked back in the half-light of the moon-lit night. LOL! I guess that is a good thing! I have not taken it any farther than that but it is one of two story ideas that I have more completely developed. Once again, I look at my walks as a gift from God—in more than one way! Good bye for now!

Friday, March 16, 2007

March 16th Update

I am sorry I missed you yesterday, I was out sick.

In my last missive I talked about getting an update out to you on my writing process so here it comes.

I went to Barnes and Noble and took all my notes and ideas with me. I ordered a large hot chocolate and sat down to start coming up with an idea I felt I wanted to run with. What I am able to report is… that the hot chocolate was pretty good! LOL! The only thing that really came to mind was new names for some of the cultural people I have developed, which was good, because I have not been happy with a couple of the names.

I have thought that this whole writing process would be quicker though I knew it would be a long process. I first considered my time and B&N to be wasted but I did learn a couple more things and that is progress.

I am missing a good story line. I have a protagonist that I am beginning to like and an antagonist that I also like but who is woefully underdeveloped.

One thing that I am struggling with is the fact that I want my characters to be bigger than life with no person problems but this mindset is the exact opposite of what a good story should have, not to mention that real life is no bed of roses. I have too much compassion for my characters and this is a struggle to put them into nasty situations that could hurt them physically and\or emotionally. It may sound kooky but if I am going to make this work I need to get mean and nasty. I think I can do that…HEE HEE HEE ( evil laughter! LOL!)

Well, this is a short posting but I will keep you posted. The next week is going to be pretty hectic and we are getting away to visit some good friends in warm sunny Kansas so I do not know how much writing I will get done but I will let you know. Keep praying and I will work on it!

See y'all later!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Writer’s Blog-March 14, 2007

One of the reasons I wanted to start this blog was to give me some motivation to write what I really want to write: Fiction.

The thought was that if I set myself out here as a writer, sharing my thoughts and struggles about writing I would need to be writing. Amazing, I know. This is the brilliance of The Lazy Writer! LOL!

No, really my original thought was to take you all through my thoughts each day about how my writing was progressing and what pitfalls I was encountering, with a side of random thoughts thrown in as salt and light. So far it has just been random thoughts…

I have been spending a lot of time thinking about what I want to write and I have a ton of ideas that take me to about paragraph two in any given story. I plan to have some quiet time tonight as my family will be off at church and I am going to sit down and look at all the ideas I have written down and see if I can mix-n-match to come up with something that I am happy with.

One thing that I have read from another author, I don't remember which one off the top of my head, is roughly this-- we all have about 10,000 pages of garbage that we need to get out of our system before we have something that is of worth… With that said, I have a lot to do!

I have looked back at the early days and some of the things I wrote back then and there is some potential, if not the story line itself the style and detail were pretty good if I do say so myself. There is indeed a great deal of polishing I need to do but there was a spark of potential there. If I can just touch, in some way, someone with what I write it is all worth it. If what I write helps or entertains someone in this world then I have done what I really wanted to do. If, on the other hand, what I do reaches many people and I can get some income off what I write that is gravy, good gravy but gravy none the less.

I have a long way to go with grammar and spelling but I feel I am on the right track and I am hoping this blog will be another tool to motivate me.

Thanks for listening.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Soul-Weary-March 13, 2007

It amazes me how quickly we can become accustomed to the nice weather.

It can take all winter to get used the biting cold and by that time we are sick and tired of scrapping our windshields. But given one or maybe two nice warm days and we are in paradise.

Have you ever experienced burn out? Have you ever gotten to a point where deciding whether to have instant oatmeal or Cheerios for breakfast causes stress?

I am in one of those places right now. In fact, in my whole life I have never been this crispy. It is a tough place to be, one that I like to call "soul-weary". It is a deep dark place where the tiniest of daily decisions are stressful. Things that I would normally not even think about become difficult life and death struggles to come up with an answer. Soul-Weary.

As I have been analyzing my situation I have discovered that it all comes down to a combination of things.

  1. Spiritual indifference. When I start to drift from God things start to become a bit darker;
  2. Diet. When I intake too much caffeine it causes me to get grumpy and it sends me into orbit to a point where I can't focus for long, too hyper. I just can't sit still for a minute. Being one who enjoys thinking (I know it sounds weird but it is true!) it is hard not being able to focus for too long;
  3. Laziness. Yes, this fits in with my blog title. I get lazy. This can come in many forms such as "I just don't FEEL like it today." "I will do it tomorrow...", etc.

 

In any case it has culminated in a deep black funk.

I am not through this yet but I have turned it over to God in prayer and He has shown me that He is still with me and will not forsake me, ever, for any reason.

I have peace deep inside.

In fact, I believe God is teaching me something and, in a sense, I am excited about this whole situation and He has caused me to praise Him-as I should do in all situations anyway!

I am of the firm belief that God wants me to evaluate my current ministries and maybe step out of some or all of them. I would covet your prayers for wisdom in this situation. What this is all leading to is a reevaluation of my giftedness and God's call on my life. I have some budding ideas that I believe God is putting into my heart and mind but I am not prepared to speak about them yet.

Well, that does it for me today. I hope you all have a great day today and remember to take your burdens to the Lord because He does care for you and what is happening in your life!

Monday, March 12, 2007

This is a Test

I just setup my Word 2007 to post my blogs so this is simply a test.

Late on March 12th

Good morning y'all. No, I am not from Texas but I love the y'all's! It just seems so friendly! Some of the most friendly people I know are from the southern part of our great nation. I worked with a gentleman from El Passo this past week, he is very good at disguising his accent but once in a while a "y'all" will slip out and I love it! I had a chance to see an old friend from Georgia this weekend and it was so refreshing! She loves the Lord with her whole heart. She laughs a lot and can't get enough of telling others how much Jesus has done in her life! I found that I was embarrassed...not by what she said but because I see in her how I wish I were in my walk. I would love to have Jesus rule every area of my life and heart. I was also reminded that I am not her, I am who I am and the Lord has a different path for me to take but I still long for Him to rule in every area of my life. The term "whole hearted" or "diligence" is a theme that continues to reverbeate through my heart and mind. I am quite discouraged by my lack of diligence but I am encouraged to note that the Lord has not given up on me nor will He give up on you. If you are struggling today with anything, bring it to the Throne of God's wonderful grace! He is waiting to help you. Perhaps you are not a christian. Perhaps you are someone searching for...something. You have an emptiness in your heart that nothing seems to fill. I know what it is that created that hole. I could better say I know WHO created that hoile, it is God. He created us with a hole in our hearts that can not be filled with anything but Him. You can rail against this truth but the hole in your heart will not be healed until you look to Jesus. The peace and joy that will fill your heart will be beyond understanding and you will be amazed at what a new heart feels like. This is not to say that you will not experience pain and trouble, because you will, but you will find that God will be with you through any and every trial you go through. There is not a storm that you will pass through that God will not go with you. If you are searching look to God. He does have the answers and He is willing to pass them onto you. Good Bye for now. I hope you will take this missive to heart today. Greg